What I am as an artist?

I am a fan fiction writer of one of the greatest fictions, and truths of all time.
I am humbled compared to reality the basis of my works which when followed allows my extreme contrasts to exist in my story.

For in this world there contains everything I write about in every extreme way you could possabily imagine. Entertain my words as both powerful metaphors, and literal phrases. For in every way many of my words contain both. How I ground my reality is all up to your own perception and depth in understanding, for you can read as deeply as you wish into my words, just prepare your self for time to slow.

I often clash two particular powers only to have it resolved by a standing purpose of my poetry that keeps the story in a almost devine definition. For you could just have "good Versus evil", but with that third factor in place where the resolve is not just one gets defeated, then you have a concept that extends beyond the holywood. For in true reality there is not the straight and dull paths of the holy and unholy. Black and white exchange hands as common gestures, bother under a force that resolves each to a more open choice, and this is what opens my art literally.
What I am as an artist. I am unlike most. I do not write my self into the story. Absolutly none of the characters are a personification or even close to how I act in real life/my image of my self. If I were to write my self into the story, it would literally use one of my many aliases. This does not mean I do not feel what the characters feel, for I do, but they are unlike my own motivation in the same situation. I do find it odd that I can shake my head at my own character's actions, but that odd form of dissasociation is a useful tool.
I write worlds, Illustrate power, and resolve/mediate all of the above. Poetry is second hand, and has to be for my skill is a bit lax. With this however, a woven reality becomes a possability of expression.

From the outside you may think I am disturbed, or otherwise having a traumatic experience to derrive some pieces from. The truth couldn't be further, as I have had a average middle class life, and I was never really bullied . Though I cannot say people didn't try, it often was hillarious. I have gotten very mad at people who harmed my friends however, and let's just say those are the things legendary hosptial visits are made of. It is all through poetry and my understanding of "pain" that I can derrive some of my most traumatic poetry from. However, the darker pieces "which are not nessacarily emo"- come straight from my understanding of the blackest ways posasble.

Though I must admit one folly of my own character outloud for all to hear. The reason for me to draw, write, or even do anything is because like most of you reading this. I am bored out of my skull with how mundaine everything is. If only the world were like my fantasy it would be kept intressting. This is quite a fault on my part, for such a dream truely is insane. However, genious is born from insanity in every way. While I may not be fully genious I would always like to think my self such. Arraguance, yes, Prideful no oddly enough. I think of my self high, but my actions are low in comparison. So I have no pride in what I do, but I think my self very great. Again , more faults, but that is what makes me human.

I honestly think every single one of my drawings is ugly, flawed and horrable to look at. Only small aspects of them look any good what so ever.
My writting, is hard to read, and well doesn't always convey the granduer I attempt.
I fail heavily on all points, in my minds eye. While I think high of my self, my skill is nowhere even close to what I want it to be. I consistantly think the thing I am trying to convey is soooo much better then what I actually put on paper, or digital canvas.

I am a darkned mind, and a light heart.
I herald messages over reality it's self, but am humbled by the enflows of it all under tyme.
I am a secret, spoken truthfully.
I am deep upfront.
I have a direction that is uncomprimised.
My hand follys and contridicts much further, but eventually follows my will.

I enthrall only my self, to enable a powerful message to flow to all of you.
This is me as a artist, This is me expressing beyond the mind's bind.

To draw what is so deeply shaded into the unreachable.
I will venture into the seemingly abysal faberic of it all, clashed agaisnt the endless expanse to attain my ability as an artist.